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It's done. He officially broke up with me. To be honest, I felt like this relationship was doomed as soon as I started getting attached to him.
We got into so many fights. And we forgave each other. And the cycle went on. And you know who perpetuated this? Me.
I never gave him space. I was jealous of every single thing that came near him. And I hardly respected him. In fact, I envied him. Even loathed him. I guess I really deserve it.
You know, I've always been a loner and got used to being by myself. But now that this happened, I suddenly realized how burdening this emotion really is.
I feel so alone now...but I really did bring this upon myself. With my selfishness.
All of that talk of marriage...it was a lie all along. A lie that I made into a reality.
I wonder if there'd be anyone else who could love me the same way that he did.
We got into so many fights. And we forgave each other. And the cycle went on. And you know who perpetuated this? Me.
I never gave him space. I was jealous of every single thing that came near him. And I hardly respected him. In fact, I envied him. Even loathed him. I guess I really deserve it.
You know, I've always been a loner and got used to being by myself. But now that this happened, I suddenly realized how burdening this emotion really is.
I feel so alone now...but I really did bring this upon myself. With my selfishness.
All of that talk of marriage...it was a lie all along. A lie that I made into a reality.
I wonder if there'd be anyone else who could love me the same way that he did.